Han pasado miles de cosas since i .- wrote the last time here. I dont know what is more impportant or why im writing on this I KNOW:
I have no friends who i can trust with this.
No one is online and i feel like shit
i really feel bad
Watever im doing is not working.
i feel lonely
sad
lost
angry
upset
traicionada
used
misstreated
BAD:......
I dont know if im slefish to think on this way but its just how i feel.
Im really trying to see the good things i have but
i can't just now.
i Can't get there and is bothering me too much
my mind
my heart
i really feel lit
its like i cant breathe
my stomach start hurting
and i dont know where to start.
I know by geting close to God
but that is just not helping now.
I dont know
By writing this i feel like......
im telling to someone what is bothering me
*hablando con Dios* la pelicula
es buena, de k ..... supuetsamente siempre hablamos c DIos
i see my life
and i dont like what i have done
to forgive is to move forward
ok
i forgive ppl
but i can't forgive my self for making a mess with my own life
because no one told me to do shit
i did it on my own
i see
i whish oo man

im back home, in MOntemorelos im here since thursday, i went on friday to take my wisdont tooth out.
Im missing a game in mty
Tigres practice....
My lfe is a dissaster
MY OWN DISASTER

i love my family is just that....... i dont feel that u fit here
i wanna leave so bad
i wanna live some where else
just not here
not close to the ppl who i grow with
far from the university
somewhere i can start all over again

Where ther's no hate, jelous, traición, mentiras, egoismo....
only heaven
well i wanna be there!!!!
just no here.

i dont understand.
she is earning money.
my dad loves her
i love her
mi sister
everyone
what she is looking for!
sex??? c moN!
i dont understand
that she dont care
anything but that
i feel bad
bad
bad

I found condoms in my mom's purse
what the hell!
someone can tell me a reason why someone is carrying condoms?
yea to HAVE SEX! everyone know that

wheni start to belive thta thigs are changing
something ALWAYS come up
and shows me the truth

sometimes i just dont want to wake up
so i can stop feeling

I like feelings but GOod feelings
i dont like to feel this way.

I wanna feel loved by someone
i wanna FEEL IT

where is rolando
i need him
i c an't, i need to talk to someone
take this out

suspiro
volvi a a gregar a lj
a ver si se digna a hablarme
tal vez
no se, y si no, no importa
otra decepcion mas ne la vida
k mas
si ando negativa y???
mivida solo es und esastre

hm
well
i dont wanna say this much but
my life sucks

No se pensaba k al no decirlo era como kn o estaba pasando
Negarlo eso hacia k fuera mentira
yo k se o k jnohabia pasado
como desearia k no hbiera pasado
nada de esto

Si es k si salgo c Gadi si le voya contar, pareec ser un buen amigo y de vdd necesito salcarlo c alguien
pEro si no ps me ag uanto
o no se!
me choca
mi situación

me siento cansada.